Lapis Lazuli Crystal: When I was a young child, I wanted to be a writer. I wanted to write Grammy-winning songs, then write a funny memoir about how I became a Grammy-winning songwriter.
My grandpa’s wife (we were instructed not to address her as any form of “grandma”) had a writing desk in the room I would sleep in. The chair had “stylo empoisonné” painted on it in dark blue. She told me it meant “poison pen” and that writing had great power behind it.
Every day I would climb onto that chair, pick up the “poison pen” and try to write something powerful and brave. I would also stare at her Lapis Lazuli stones set carefully on the desk corner.
Lapis Lazuli Crystal is said to bring great creativity and intuition. I don’t know if it worked for my grandpa’s wife, but I wanted to see if it would work for me.
Here’s my video on my week if you prefer to watch:
Here is my previous post on Lapis Lazuli if you want more info on the actual crystal. This post is going to focus on my own experience and recommendations.
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Day 1 – Working and Searching
A few weeks ago I was complaining about my living situation, which I’ve absolutely hated for years. I got fantastic news that the place is about to become all mine! I’m so excited. It’s well worth paying double for everything to have the place to myself.
Of course the ex-roommate left mountains of garbage in each room they used, but I can clean it myself. I never cleaned it while they lived here because it would just return to a landfill within days. Now I can clean, organize, re-shape the energy and bring some positivity into my home. So excited!
It was unseasonably warm today (70 in late October), so I worked mostly outside with my Lapis Lazuli in tow:
I love its heart shape.
I then went on a long hike and got finished just in time for a thunderstorm. I love thunderstorms, so this has been a great day!
Every day this week, I will diligently work to find my life path. I searched “Animal Psychologist” and…I don’t know that this is a good option for me. I’d basically need a veterinary degree and also a psychology degree, and then I don’t even know what my career would be. A lot of people become animal trainers through this path, but I feel like I could become an animal trainer a lot more easily without going down that path.
Still no idea what I’m doing, but I’m narrowing it down.
Day 2 – Librarian or Therapist?
A few months ago, I took a career test that my therapist/life coach gave me. It analyzes your personality and gives you a Top 10 list of things you would be good at. I was frustrated because almost every career I got (musician, writer, photographer, etc) are basically freelance careers, and I don’t want to embark on a new career just to end up where I am now.
Honestly, I like where I am now. I love my career. I just feel like it’s time for change and I need something more stable. Freelance income fluctuates greatly over time, and it’s tough to never know how much I will make.
Two of the careers listed were Librarian and Psychologist. I could see myself doing either of those, but I feel like a Psychologist also has to be an entrepreneur in order to get new clients. I don’t like that, but I also don’t know that I would love being a Librarian. Getting a Master’s Degree is a big commitment and I don’t know that I would enjoy that.
If I could somehow make way more money with what I’m doing, and/or also work with animals somehow, that would be my ideal life.
Day 3 – Breaking Down
Ugh f*ck today seriously. I hated today. I was severely disappointed by something and also WHAT IS MY LIFE WHAT IS HAPPENING IDK. I decided I was mad and did NOT want to work with my stone today, but then I was scrolling Reddit and found this:
Okay so obviously that’s a sign and I should work with it, right? Well guess what, Lapis Lazuli? I do what I want. I’ll work with you tomorrow or when I feel like it.
I did force myself to put on makeup and do my hair, because for some reason when I’m doing those things I don’t think about how much I wish I was dead.
Day 4 – Rebuilding
Today was better than yesterday, but it couldn’t have been worse. Just a low-key day of working.
I found this Lapis Lazuli meditation that I really liked:
I volunteered to clean up my local park on Halloween. It’s going to be freezing cold, but I’m excited. I could think of no better way to celebrate Halloween/Samhain than to clean one of my favorite places. I’m going alone, so I’m also going to give my social anxiety a huge kick in the teeth.
I also found this new video by The Tarot Priest, whom I absolutely adore:
I chose deck #3 and it really resonated with me. I am guided by my fears instead of my passions, and I need to re-work that.
Day 5 – Breaking Down Fear
I really don’t know how to let go of my fear of criticism and/or “haters” (I know they’re two different things, but I’m equally afraid of both of them). I know this is part of what’s keeping my blog small. I just feel like if no one sees my little corner here, no one can criticize me. But also, if no one sees me, no one can benefit or share my work. But is that even bad? Is my work worth seeing?
I honestly don’t know how social media influencers do it. How do they plan any posts knowing that a great deal of the comments will be hateful? Or even if there’s just one mean comment, how do they not focus solely on that?
This seems like something I should talk to a therapist about.
Day 6 – Halloween, Blue Moon & Blood
I got up after a horrible night’s sleep to volunteer at the park. It was so cold at first, but once we got working it was fine and I had a great time. We were chopping and hauling invasive Autumn Olive. It has huge thorns and I got stabbed multiple times.
Today was a blue moon on Halloween, which makes it extra special. I don’t know enough about astrology to know why it’s special, but I went to the lake across the street and took some moon water.
I thought the bottle was full but when I got back, there was only a few drops of water in it.
Later, I was in my laundry room when suddenly there was blood raining everywhere. I was so confused. It was pouring all over the floor, all over my hands. I looked up, thinking there was an animal that just died above me or something.
Eventually I realized it was my own finger:
I….am I a witch now? This means something, right? I have no idea how I cut it; there was nothing sharp near me.
I carried myself upstairs and poured black pepper in the cut (this is a good natural remedy – it stops bleeding and can prevent infection since it’s antibacterial.
After that mess, I turned on Fleetwood Mac, lit some sage and cleaned up the blood.
Here’s my Lapis Lazuli crystal, my moon water and The Moon:
All day I’ve heard random info to “explore all options” and “think of new opportunities.” I’m lost, but today was so eventful I feel like it all ties together.
Day 7 – Blizzard
It has been snowing so hard all day today. Not gonna lie I was a little excited about it, which is weird because I hate being cold and I hate driving in snow. Still, there’s something so fresh and exciting about the year’s first snowfall.
By the year’s 467’th snowfall I’m praying for death, but that’s another story.
My Results Working With Lapis Lazuli Crystal
- I mean…none? At least not what it’s supposed to do, but this WAS an eventful week.
- That’s it, I guess. This is my first official Crystal Experiments fail. But, I do have some tips for you to get a better result than me!
How to Work With Lapis Lazuli Crystal:
This is tough, because I didn’t have results myself, so I feel like I shouldn’t give advice on how to work with it. But I worked with it the same way I did all of them, so here’s my advice:
- My biggest recommendation is to journal daily and to mindfully review your goals when working with the crystal. Tie your purpose into each day and journal about it, I promise it will be helpful!
- Go hiking, or get out in nature somehow. Take your crystal with you to serve as a reminder of where to focus your thoughts.
- Specifically with Lapis Lazuli, I think I expected too much. There’s no way a week’s worth of work with a crystal would reveal my entire life path. I recommend focusing on smaller decisions and seeing how those pan out. You might find your life path unveiling itself as you go!
If you want to work with crystals yourself, I have a free crystal worksheet you can use:
If you want some Lapis of your own, you can buy them in bulk on Amazon (great for crystal grids if you use those!) You can buy them raw:
Or you can buy them tumbled, which I prefer: