This week I worked closely with moonstones in a quest to find my inner Goddess. I talked about what they are and what they do in this post, but this post is about my specific results working with moonstones.
How I worked with Moonstones:
- Carrying them with me everywhere
- Placing them in full view of my work desk and bed, where I can see them and remind myself to have confidence, and/or analyze my emotions
- Daily journaling
- Meditating with and about them
- Taking them with me to therapy appointments
- Doing yoga with them
There are many ways to work with different crystals, but those were my main focus this week.
Here is my video talking about Moonstones in depth:
The following is my diary of working with Moonstones. If you want to skip to my results, click here.
If you want to skip to my recommendations for working with Moonstones, click here.
Day 1 – Panic Attacks and Breakthroughs
Today was tough. It was deeply emotional and I’m sitting here, heart racing, knowing that I’m physically safe but never feeling so.
I had to see two people from my past that gave me a lot of trauma and issues later on in life. One hung around for only an hour or so, one stayed the whole day. Being in the presence of this person caused me more stress in a day than I’ve had the last 5 years.
You know those viral people who are filmed screaming at workers for dumb reasons? This is such a person. We went to three places today and each place I felt my body tense so hard, knowing that anything could set them off at any time. Conversations were kept light but always came back to this person being really great at everything. Their narcissism is probably the least scary thing about them.
At the third place, where they behaved the worst, I realized that this was EVERY DAY of my childhood. Following this person around, hearing stories about how they are perfect and everyone else sucks, waiting for them to scream at at least one person over something ridiculous.
I used to be numb to this. The fact that I’m not numb to it anymore, must mean that I’m growing, right? I have led a different life of my own choosing, where these things never occur. In a sense, I’m glad for today because it allowed me to see how far I’ve come.
I didn’t take any photos today, but I did carry my Moonstones with me. I kept running my fingers over them throughout the day. Fidgeting with them helped a lot. Taking xanax helped a lot.
No breakthrough can occur without a period of darkness, I suppose. I do think the Moonstones aided me today. Not only did they provide a physical comfort when I started to panic, they also (I believe) helped guide me to this realization that my path is now my own. I choose what happens.
Day 2 – Gem Show
I know in my last crystal test (Fluorite) I said I wasn’t going to buy any more crystals this year, but listen. There was a gem and crystal expo DOWN THE STREET FROM MY HOUSE am I supposed to just not go?!? I can’t believe the self-restraint I expressed because I managed to only leave with one thing. It physically pained me to buy less.
Look at this awesome geode though:
I was thinking more about yesterday and that terrible experience. This person was a major female figure in my life, and Moonstones are said to bring clarity and also have feminine energy. I was raised to believe that all women are the same, and all women are enemies. I no longer believe that in any way, and I feel so bad for this person who considers everyone an enemy.
I’m not trying to say I’m better than this person at all, but trust me when I say this person is so toxic and present in most of my nightmares.
I also realized that Moonstones are beneficial for Libra, Cancer and Scorpio. I’m a Scorpio moon! I’m happy with how things are going this week so far.
Day 3 – Struggles and Gratitude
I’ve never kept track of my periods. Number 1, I have no desire/ability to get knocked up, and 2, I never experienced any symptoms that made me want to track it.
Over the last couple of years, I feel like the week before, I get incredibly depressed. It keeps getting worse, to the point where today I felt like I should just end it all. Then I immediately snapped out of it and thought, “WTF?! I just had a good day yesterday and I have no reason to do this.” I’m predicting my period is not far off.
To keep sad thoughts at bay, I focused on work. I got this lovely note from a client:
So nice! I often feel like I have no purpose and what I do doesn’t matter (I really need to work on my ego), so things like this help a lot.
Day 4 – Moon Time & Marilyn Monroe
GUESS WHAT CAME TODAY B*TCHES. I knew it! This proves my theory and also is a great tool because now I can talk to my doctor about it. Maybe I need hormonal therapy or something?
Today I was watching a docuseries on Marilyn Monroe and I found out she had my exact height and weight at certain points of her career. If anything was going to make me feel like a goddess, that will do it. I did a mini photoshoot to celebrate:
I also had a really tough therapy session today, but it was pivotal and what I would consider a breakthrough.
Moonstones are proving to be pretty powerful this week. Of course I can’t attribute everything to them, but I definitely will attribute a lot to them. Just saying ladies – if you want a powerful, goddess-like moon time, get your hands on some Moonstones.
Day 5 – Meditations
I keep forgetting to meditate, and there are a LOT of moonstone meditations. I used the shortest one I could find today and I quite enjoyed it:
Day 6 – More Struggles
Today was emotional. I struggled with work, I struggled with The Point of It All. I have an almost constant fear that I’m not doing what I’m supposed to do in life. In rare times, I can make myself believe that there is No Point, and that we should strive to just be happy. The thought of No Point is scary, though, and I usually talk myself back out of it.
I have another therapy appointment tomorrow that I KNOW is going to be tough, so I’m taking notes to prepare. I tried to do a moonstone meditation but couldn’t focus and got up halfway through.
Today was hard. Emotional, yearning, and no conclusion other than a setting sun. I hope that isn’t the sentence that summarizes my life.
Day 7 – Sunsetting
This week has just been such a rollercoaster. However, looking back over everything, it seems that every low point was pivotal and necessary. The therapy appointment went way better than I thought; surprisingly I didn’t even cry which is rare.
I enjoyed working with moonstones overall, but I need a mental break after this week. I definitely felt their force pretty hard.
What I learned working with Moonstones:
- I was able to fully experience and analyze my emotions, including their direct and indirect causes
- My confidence got a boost from acting as if I was a Goddess, even if I didn’t feel like it
- My emotions are tied into my hormones and mood cycle
Top Tips to work with Moonstones:
- Envision yourself as a Goddess, or whatever deity works for you. It may seem fake at first, but you’ll notice over time that it gets easier and you may just find a new sense of self-worth.
- Prepare for an emotional time. Rather than run from it, lean into it by journaling your thoughts. Dig deeper than the surface emotions to find the lessons within.
- Take time to analyze patterns in your emotions. You may surprise yourself by what you find, and it will help you to take healthy steps forward.